我的爱情和你无关

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在写下这些东西之前，我给自己倒了一大杯红酒，仰头喝下一大口，希望借着酒意，回忆起这么多年的一些爱情往事。   

　　我恋爱的开端在现在的小孩眼中肯定是晚恋的典型。高考毕业，才开始有人追求我。总结起晚恋的原因，我到现在都觉得和外貌有直接的关系。好吧，我承认哪个男生都不想和一个留着运动头，穿着肥大校服的的假小子谈恋爱。感谢高考的来临，学校对发型和衣着抓的不那么紧，女生蠢蠢欲动的爱美之心可以泛滥。自从我头发长及可以扎起马尾，某班的班长开始默默的追随我，几乎每次可以在餐厅离我不远不近的地方看到他。其实我很享受这种被但对于一些孩子来说人守护的感觉，正如料想的一样，高考结束后的第二天，他发短信和我告白了。比起短信告白，我更喜欢情书，令我遗憾的是，直到大学毕业我都没有收到过。这段感情并没有持续多久，因为高考志愿的不同，我们被不同的学校录取了，随后便再无来往。   

　　不得不提的是，高中时代我暗恋过一个男生，从今天开始这将不再是一个秘密。这是一个怎样的男生呢？他给人的感觉坏坏的，痞痞的，很会哄女孩子开心，唱歌特别棒，篮球打得也好，在我心中，他就是一个阳光大男孩。那时候，我没有足够的勇气去占有这么一个男生，更何况，我怕被拒绝。现在想想有什么可怕的呢，运气好一点，他成了我的人；运气坏一点，我们成了陌生人。我至今仍记得，高中毕业第二年的班级聚会，我见到了暗恋的他，始终记得他看到我时的不可思议的表情，还有那句玩味的话：要不咱俩在一起吧。当时，我心想发型真特么重要，老娘也算美女一枚好吧，都被高中铁律这只刽子手扼杀了。最后的最后，自从那次聚会之后我们再无联系。大学时我还偷偷加了他人人，毕竟暗恋过一段时间，哪能说忘就忘。看到他有了女朋友，过得很幸福，虽然内心很不爽，但也只能祝福了，即使这样，我仍不忍删掉他，直到毕业后不再上人人，眼不见心不恋。   

　　上大学后，我留起了披肩长发，穿文艺女神那种必备的长裙，开始学着走气质路线，果然我的桃花君开始眷顾我。我也欣然接收了男生的追求，谈过几段恋爱。我是很听话的孩子，我相信了学长学姐们那些“大学恋爱不长久，毕业即分手”的真言，并坚定地践行了这些真言：我享受这些爱情却没重视这些爱情。其中有一段类似伤痕的爱情。我喜欢上了一个坏坏的痞痞的时尚男生，好吧，不得不承认我对这类男生毫无抵抗力，至今遇到这样的男生我都会不自觉的多看两眼。这段爱情是我付出过真心却以被甩收尾的，像极了安徽台引进的泰国虐心电视剧。我用光了我所有的爱意，我给他写了很多情书还有情诗，和张爱玲一样低到尘埃里守护这份爱情，一个月后结果却被短短的几个字“没有新鲜感了”打破了我所有的幻想，这个可恶的臭男人。爱情就是这么不公平，谁认真了谁就输了。从那以后，我再没有给谁写过情书，不再说爱，爱在我心中代表了一种承诺，承诺了就必须践行。这种义无反顾的付出，我怕了。   

　　毕业后，爱情不再是爱情。爱情和上床更多地联系在了一起。很多男人花言巧语的哄骗你，给你承诺只不过是获取你更多的好感，滚床单才是最终目的。能碰到珍惜你爱护你的男人，真的好很难。有时候遇到自己喜欢最新的分析结果显示的男生，在那种不可抗拒的情境中，在这个男人还没有明确关系前，就先献出了自己。这时候，我觉得自己很傻，为什么不先要个名分？可是，事后冷静想来，要了名分又有什么用。为了得到你，男人的话言不由衷得多，事后呢，照旧翻脸不认人，说不联系就不联系，说分就分。管你爱的死去活来。我渐渐的明白一个道理：为什么奢求这样一个名分呢？岂不轻贱了自己。和男人上床前想清楚，上床要心甘情愿，不要有所图，更别希冀他对你负责任。你爱他，他爱你，恭喜你收获了爱情；你爱慕了他，他不爱你，也不算坏事，起码他是你喜欢的人，不是什么癞蛤蟆，更何况他也免费服务了一晚。这样想来，各不相欠，心里自然轻松许多。   

　　我们的爱情和被爱的人无关，爱就爱了，哪有那么多黯然心伤。别做哭哭啼啼的林黛玉，要爱就哄哄咧咧的爱一场，无论天崩地裂；不爱就分的干干脆脆，守好自尊，离开得潇潇洒洒。编辑评语回首爱情不堪，留些念想，引些共鸣(作者自评)

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